Death By Antipathetic Greedy Racism

When I explained to a white doctor—after he had stuck a scalpel into my infected finger to drain, with nary a numbing agent, and then yelling at me for Yelping Once in pain, telling me to calm down—that his insensitivity in thinking that I did not need but one SPRITZ of a numbing agent and then reacting as if my reaction to the pain was dramatic and not that bad stems from the times of American slavery and the sadistic physical, sexual, medical, and experimental assaults of the Black enslaved Americans by the minds and hands of the white and entitled, born with all the privileges of liberty and their rights to be right and to be heard and in charge and carry their guns and get those benefits of all those doubts, and be wrong but still be right and “We’re Americans!” “WE are America!” and “Our beautiful American flag!” and “We’re number 1!” and their propaganda and changing narratives and appropriating EVERY FUCKING THING and gentrifying EVERY FUCKING NOOK AND CRANNY and pushing people out and further and further and further and further and further out, that persists till this day, which states, Black people do not feel pain the way everybody else does. Of course these white supremacist doctor’s, like “the father of gynecology,” James Marion Sims, and scientists, biologists, et al, knew that my ancestors felt pain; but these demon people—those who “founded” this country through slaughter, rape, lies, double-crossing, taking advantage, using up innocent People (Indigenous), and vile sadism, are the same people still running this country to the ground, or silently acting as if everything is equal and normal and “It’s fine!”—knew we were in pain, but their sadism or comfort or both, didn’t care and got off on it. Others pain, humiliation, vulnerability, anger, resignation, fight, strength, Brilliance, made these demon people, tick. Same people. Ancestors. Connected. Related. Morally, the same. The complicity is the same. Their silence is the same.

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The doctor with the scalpel had turned into an angry beet; he said, “You are insulting me and I won’t have it!” 

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I’m insulting you? How do you think I feel?

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Rana Zoe Mungin should not be dead.