In My Heart

I wish I could be pregnant. I've dreamed of being pregnant; of carrying a sweet baby in my womb. I wish I could give birth and brush thousands of kisses on my sweet baby's head; gazing a thousand upon thousands of loving gazes that come directly from my unconditional compassionate eyes made expressively for my sweet baby girl or boy. I've dreamed of this splendor for what seems like forever and a day. I would have made such a caring and present mommy. I would have been such a patient mom. I would have been such a strong mother. My child would have felt safe in my arms and in my care. I may never realize this wish, this dream...but in my heart, my soul...I am.