I Am Awake

So just now, me and a young Kinfolk womxn I don't know are sitting on benches and these two white girls come and sit done next to us-- one is in my Astronomy class. I recognize her voice and look up from studying for my Astronomy midterm and say hey! I smile and say hey to her friend. I go back to studying. But I can't help but hear their conversation since we're all sitting in such close proximity. I hear them talk about how blacks should be more grateful and respectful; that her immigrant progressive grandparents hired blacks and how grateful and respectful they were to her grandparents. My blood is beginning to boil. My heart is racing. They talk about the Ferguson protests being ridiculous. That blacks are always complaining about so called white privilege. The other black girl on the bench leaves. I look up and yell (not graceful at all), "Are you fucking kidding me?! I'll tell you something about white privilege: The fact that you're having this conversation and you've got a black womxn sitting right next to you and me across from you and you COULD CARE LESS about whether you're making us feel uncomfortable with your racist fucking point of view and the fact that we as blacks go out of our way to not have discussions about the fucked up racist experiences we RISE ABOVE to make sure YOU and you're white ass fragility feel comfortable is WHITE FUCKING PRIVILEGE! My white classmate tries to say something. "I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT KATE!" I leave to the nearby bathroom. I walk back out and pass them. Kate is holding her fragile fucking white friend. The angry black woman scared the shit out of them. I yell, "You should be ashamed of yourselves!!"

Wow. I NEVER WOULD HAVE DONE THAT especially knowing the white person. I wouldn't have wanted to make waves, hurt their feelings, make them uncomfortable. I DIDN'T CARE. I'm crying tears of joy right now because I FEEL FREE.♡ #itsanewdawnitsanewday